I am just sort of thinking, and I just sort of feeling like going back to writing like how some of my old posts used to be, where I wouldn't be reporting, I'd just be spouting. Spouting of sentences and words which you can only know what they mean if you are involved.
I'm in the mood for a drama. No, not for some drama, but for a drama. Why is it that when I'm in the mood for a comedy, I get a tragedy, and when I'm in the mood for a tradgedy, I get a comedy? Is that just how life is or something? You get the exact opposite of want you want? I'm being quite the melodramatic right now. I don't know. Maybe it's just becasue I came home, layed down, and all the happiness I had collected tonight sort of drowned. If that even makes any sense. I'm not really sad right now, but I'm not close to happy either. I'm not quite apathetic, but I'm for sure not full of feeling. So where does that put me? Just feeling with no particular feeling at all? Do these words even make sense to you? What color would my tears be right now if I was crying? Not yellow, but not blue, and certaintly not deep teal. They aren't black or either reds, so what would they be? I suppose it doesn't matter because I'm not crying, nor do I feel like crying. I'm not sure what I feel like right now, which as you may have noticed, is what I've been saying this whole post.
Can anyone understand me?
It's time to begin, isn't it?
12 years ago
3 comments:
i do understand.
or, i'm trying, at the very least.
and it may change later on, but i think it'll stay like that for a while.
FDSJKLFDSA TWIN!!!
last night i didn't go to sleep because i was too busy writing shitloads of everything i was thinking and it sounded something like this.
WOW
because we both have no idea what we're feeling!
that's pretty damned amazing.
katie, where do u get the template that u have!!??
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