This only serves as further proof that I shouldn't talk to guys I care about past 9:30P.M.
God Fucking Damn It.
It's time to begin, isn't it?
12 years ago
Monday, January 26, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
16 and growing up so fast.
In Liz's blog she said that she was out of here in two years.
I hadn't realized.
Is that all that it is?
Really?
I feel like I have so much more growing up to do before I go off to college, but two years? That's really not so much, is it?
I mean, I suppose that it really is a lot when you think about it, but at the same time...wow. I guess I just hadn't noticed that it was so close. I'm 3/8 done with high school. I'm kind of scared to leave high school to be honest. I know that sounds silly, and it's not that I'm not ready to go off on my own...it's just weird to think about I suppose. I just hadn't realized that that is all it is. It's funny how four years sounded like forever and 2 and a half sounds like almost nothing.
Yet at the same time it sounds like forever and I wonder if we will ever get to leave.
Then I actually think of that song High School Never Ends (which I only know because of it is featured in an Ouran High School Host Club AMV). I was thinking of all the condesending, inconsiderate to the EXTREME, ridiculous, gossiping, back stabbing, BITCHES that fill high school and I'm realizing that they are never going to go away. I am always going to be surrounded by the same immature idiots that I am with now, even if their names and faces change.
Is it weird that we don't think of our best friends in that way? I mean, best friends change over time, that's how life is, but we don't think of them as the same people with a different name and face.
I wonder why that is.
I wonder if they are?
I hadn't realized.
Is that all that it is?
Really?
I feel like I have so much more growing up to do before I go off to college, but two years? That's really not so much, is it?
I mean, I suppose that it really is a lot when you think about it, but at the same time...wow. I guess I just hadn't noticed that it was so close. I'm 3/8 done with high school. I'm kind of scared to leave high school to be honest. I know that sounds silly, and it's not that I'm not ready to go off on my own...it's just weird to think about I suppose. I just hadn't realized that that is all it is. It's funny how four years sounded like forever and 2 and a half sounds like almost nothing.
Yet at the same time it sounds like forever and I wonder if we will ever get to leave.
Then I actually think of that song High School Never Ends (which I only know because of it is featured in an Ouran High School Host Club AMV). I was thinking of all the condesending, inconsiderate to the EXTREME, ridiculous, gossiping, back stabbing, BITCHES that fill high school and I'm realizing that they are never going to go away. I am always going to be surrounded by the same immature idiots that I am with now, even if their names and faces change.
Is it weird that we don't think of our best friends in that way? I mean, best friends change over time, that's how life is, but we don't think of them as the same people with a different name and face.
I wonder why that is.
I wonder if they are?
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Saturday, January 3, 2009
EXCITEMENT!
Well, none of these things were supposed to have anything to do with the new year, they all just happened to fall at this time.
New goals, new boyfriend, new ideas, new many things.
Here is a little list.
1.) Obviously, I have a new boyfriend. For those of you who don't know, his name is Don Gurka. I probably see him different than any of the people reading this. I like him quite a bit. I hope it's a good relationship. ;D
2.) New journal. It's pretty so I don't want to waste it. I am committing to writing at least 10 minutes a day before I go to bed. I just figure that it will be good for me, plus I won't have a half filled journal. ;D
3.) Danyelle was talking to me before break about how she set apart time to work on her story that she would use no matter what, even if she only got a little bit done. I think I am going to do that. I suppose that way I will be forced to continue a story, as long as I actually do it. So, I guess I'll prove to myself whether or not I can finish what I start.
4.) Liz and I have committed to going to the gym at least 2 times a week. I think Tuesday's and Thursdays. Any takers on going with me on another day? I figure if I have a partner to go to the rec with and work out that I will actually do it, because we will depend on each other. That way I can get in shape. Not lose weight, get in shape, for those people who are thinking that I think I'm fat.
5.) Okay. So this I was thinking of because of Moral Orel, and The Mountain Goats, and the Alpha Couple and my family fighting. I was thinking of becoming the "alpha child." Just speak to my parents when spoken to or when in polite conversation, no back talking, just do the things they say when first asked. Basically, just be a really good kid. I know that that sounds kind of silly, like, okay, what is the big deal... but what teen is really like that? And I mean to the extreme. I don't know...I just figure it'll be easier. It'll probably fall through, but...it's an idea I'm tossing around.
New goals, new boyfriend, new ideas, new many things.
Here is a little list.
1.) Obviously, I have a new boyfriend. For those of you who don't know, his name is Don Gurka. I probably see him different than any of the people reading this. I like him quite a bit. I hope it's a good relationship. ;D
2.) New journal. It's pretty so I don't want to waste it. I am committing to writing at least 10 minutes a day before I go to bed. I just figure that it will be good for me, plus I won't have a half filled journal. ;D
3.) Danyelle was talking to me before break about how she set apart time to work on her story that she would use no matter what, even if she only got a little bit done. I think I am going to do that. I suppose that way I will be forced to continue a story, as long as I actually do it. So, I guess I'll prove to myself whether or not I can finish what I start.
4.) Liz and I have committed to going to the gym at least 2 times a week. I think Tuesday's and Thursdays. Any takers on going with me on another day? I figure if I have a partner to go to the rec with and work out that I will actually do it, because we will depend on each other. That way I can get in shape. Not lose weight, get in shape, for those people who are thinking that I think I'm fat.
5.) Okay. So this I was thinking of because of Moral Orel, and The Mountain Goats, and the Alpha Couple and my family fighting. I was thinking of becoming the "alpha child." Just speak to my parents when spoken to or when in polite conversation, no back talking, just do the things they say when first asked. Basically, just be a really good kid. I know that that sounds kind of silly, like, okay, what is the big deal... but what teen is really like that? And I mean to the extreme. I don't know...I just figure it'll be easier. It'll probably fall through, but...it's an idea I'm tossing around.
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