Wow.

I just read over some old blog posts of mine, and was that weird.
For instance, I read over that one where I told 10 things about myself for Natalie, and it amazes me how much of that is still perfectly true for me, yet in a different way almost. And now I'm thinking like how I used to think a lot when I would post a blog. In an odd, beautiful, barely coherant and rambling way. Except when I read it over now with a fresh set of eyes it all makes sense to me-perfect sense. And I like that I'm thinking like this again, because I'm not sure how much I really think anymore.
So you want to know what? I'm not sad but I think I need to cry. I just think that I need to cry. I haven't really lately, and I've been lonely and I think it would make me feel better just to let some of that out. It's funny almost to me, but I don't know. I miss people. I miss having connections with those who are actually close by. Perhaps humans are meant to live in pairs, because it seems that people pair off a lot, not just in couples but in general. And when your friends start pairing off it's hard to have someone you can really turn to and have it feel natural. I mean, it's nice to have someone who will be there for you, but it's different than having that person who is the natural fit. It feels like all of my natural fits are far away, and that they might as well be in a different universe because that's how often they'll be able to be there in the physical sense. Oh I'm not sure.
I used to have some beautiful things to say. If you are feeling bored, read over some posts I made in March of last year. It amazed me and it might amaze you. Read over your OWN posts from a year ago...it's crazy. It's weird. It's foreign and familiar.